All I want is a call from you...

All I want is a call from you.

All I want is to hear your laugh
And I'd like to be the cause.
All I want is to hear the smile
In the way your voice tilts.
I want to get lost in conversation
As the room around me fades.

All I want is a call from you.

Lately I've been surrounded by emptiness,
By words with no depth,
And meaningless conversation.
Loneliness rests heavily in my chest,
Even though many surround me
And my days are full.

All I want is a call from you.

Though distance and cities separate us
And life demands our attention
I yearn for a small reprieve.
I know why we must be apart
And I agree with all the reasons,
But I miss you something terrible.

All I want is a call from you.

Let me warm my cold loneliness
In the blanket of your voice.
Let me close my eyes
And imagine us together.
Let our words embrace
Even if our arms cannot.

So please...
All I want is a call from you.


By Darlee Hart

Smooth Plastic

My awareness of the sound starts as a pressure at the back of my head
In the place where my skull meets my neck
In just a few short moments though I feel it move to the front
Now it is a sharp, headache-like pressure right behind my forehead and eyes
I'm not awake enough to form a full thought yet
All I can feel is a sickly mental groan as I reach blindly with one arm
My fingers fumble over smooth plastic
I trace the three large, rectangular buttons
Searching for the middle one
I press with my index and there is a loud click
A few more minutes of peace
I roll over on my other side to get more comfortable
Oh no...
Now it will take even more effort to press the button next time
But I'm too tired to move again
My limbs seem to sink into the mattress and covers
Though I remember tossing and turning and waking up several times last night
Every inch of the bed seems perfectly comfortable now
Just when I have to leave it
The sound goes off again
This time it goes straight to the painful headache pressure
I must have dozed because it seemed way too fast
I moan and roll over again
The movement seems to take more effort than it should
I fumble for the small switch
Click
I move to lay on my back
It takes me nearly a whole minute just to open my eyes
And once I do they fall shut again almost immediately
When I force them open again there is nothing to see but the boring, white ceiling
Maybe I should put a poster there to make it a little more interesting
One with dark colors
Even with the limited light in the room the white seems blinding
I force myself to blink quickly
So that gravity will not get a hold on my eyelids again
I take a deep breath of cool air to expand my chest fully
And to clear out any sleepy dust or cobwebs that sleep has accumulated
I stretch my arms towards the ceiling and rotate my hands at the wrists
They flop back down by my sides like lifeless fish
I arch my back slightly as I straighten my legs and point my toes
I tighten my muscles in a refreshing stretch
When I release them I feel my blood flow a bit faster
And my body feels more awake
Even if my mind doesn't
I roll to my side in preparation for getting up
I reward myself for being so productive with a few seconds rest
A few seconds turn into a few minutes
Then a few more
Finally I sigh and jerk myself into a sitting position before I can think about it
I force myself let my mind drift and my body to go into auto-pilot mode
This way my mind stays half asleep but I'm still moving
The few times I have to sharpen my mind to actually think through a question or problem
My mind takes twice as long and I have to go over the information twice
All the colors seem very muted
A coat that was a vivid red yesterday now looks more like a dusty maroon
At one point I drop one of my socks
It seems like such an effort to bend down and retrieve it
Standing again makes my tired head spin
There is pressure in my ears and I yawn to relieve it
My jaw pops slightly
I finish my morning preparations a few minutes early
I find myself standing aimlessly in the middle of the room
I can't quite remember how I got there
Did I brush my teeth?
I taste mint, so I must have
Dressed...check
Shoes...check
Hair brushed...check
Jacket on...check
Backpack...check
Keys in pocket...check
Cell phone...check
Water bottle...check
I have three minutes until I have to leave
I look at my chair
There's enough time to sit down
But if I do...it'll be even harder to get up
Maybe I should just leave now
I don't want to though
I end up standing sluggishly in the middle of the room until the clock changes
Then I mentally give myself a shove to get going
I forget to be careful with the door as I leave
The loud bang brings me fully awake for a moment
But only for a moment...


By Darlee Hart

Pieces of My Childhood

 

          I just wanted to make a simple post with some pictures that I've been finding on Pinterest lately.  Sometimes I'll come across a pin that brings back so many memories of my childhood!  These are a few of them...

I'm pretty sure everyone can relate
to this one!

My mom never really understood this one
when I was little...

I used to climb trees ALL the time!
I STILL love it!

Two words...seventh grade!!!

I miss doing this!



I still do!

THANK YOU Mom and Dad for not
letting me be a brat as I was
growing up!

I still struggle with this!

Yep!  I've almost broken arms
and fingers doing this...

        

I grew up with this guy!

Disney kid through and through!!!

I called each world a "Daydream".
I would spend hours and days
creating them.

  




This reminds me of my sister and I.

  

Seriously!!!

   


I was that way for "The Princess and
the Frog" and "Tangled".

ALL through Elementary and
and High School.

 

This was one of the things that my
family did a lot that really
bugged me.

I did this since the day I learned how
to work the microwave!



And what's even better is that I didn't
 get caught!

All three of them!  Wolfgang, Lady,
AND Butty!

Especially the Magic School Bus!

My hand looked like this 98%
of the time.

Daddy's girl!



My imagination scares me...

Every time...  I've actually gotten
pretty good at it!

Yeah...pretty much...

I did this!  But it wasn't a person.
Sometimes it was a cat, sometimes a
bird, sometimes a mini-dragon, etc.

Always!!

More than one...



Memory Jars

          My friends and I have been doing Memory Jars these last few months here at college.  Basically what they are is you write down random events, funny conversations, or cool quotes you come across on small slips of paper.  Over a month you collect almost a hundred of them.  At the end of the month we all sit down and take turns reading them all.  It brings back memories that make us all nod in sympathy or crack up laughing. 
          We just read all of our little slips for this month (mine was for the last two months) and I'm still red in the face from laughing!  I wanted to share a few of the best slips that were read tonight.  I'll go by person.  Renee has the least because she forgot to write them after the first week.  Karoline forgot to write hers all together.  Rachelle wrote a decent amount, and I wrote the most.  Some notes are dated and some aren't.  I didn't include some notes that were funny, but too personal.  I might include some clarification for inside jokes in blue type.  WARNING: Most of these will seem VERY random!!!!!


Renee:

• "Shaving creme and Cheetos...  Need I say more?"  (It's a long story...) 

Rachelle:

• "Renee sniffing my perfume all the time."
• "Fabreeze!!!"  (Lets just say that the boys floor above us REALLY stinks...)
• "Me screaming as I almost fell off the bed and scaring the crap out of my roommates."  (I almost had a heart attack!)
• "Computer Science teacher talking sooooooooooo slowly...  LET MY PEOPLE GO!!!"
• "Annoying labs with bad instructions.  *cough*  Computer Science.  *cough*"
• "Housing...  Enough said."
• "Trying to get Adam with whipped creme."  (Another long story...)
• "Louis and Gerald become friends!!  :)"  (Louis is the name of a bamboo plant in our room, and Gerald is Rachelle's stuffed giraffe.)
• "Rachelle:  Does something in this room smell good to you?  Renee:  I don't know...  *Insert a minute's silence...*  Renee:  ...I think it's me."
• "Crying over Nicolas Sparks books."
• "Computer Science teacher can't spell.  -.- "
• "Banana!"  (...I have no idea...)
• "Going to sleep too warm, and then waking up continuously because you're too cold."

Darlee/Me:

• "You know it's stormy when you're walking to class and the wind is blowing so sideways that it's blowing rain UP your nose.  (3-12-13)"
• "The dining hall is mocking me.  I hate it when they have good food when I'm having a bad day!  Because then I can't enjoy it!  (3-1-13)"
• "Checking your phone to see what the time is...  And then checking it five more times because you weren't paying attention."
• "Karoline threatening to freeze and/or burn her roommate's socks!  LOL!!!  (3-11-13)"  (Let's just say Karoline hates socks and her roommate leaves them lying around a lot.)
• "Rachelle accidentally yelling, "Stop you Butt!" instead of "Stop you bus!"  Lol!!"
• "*As I get up to leave*  Sonya:  Are you going to call Jeremy?  Me:  Uh...no.  I'm going to the bathroom.  Sonya:  Okay.  Just don't call him while you're in the bathroom, okay?  Cuz that's gross!  *Pause*  Me:  Sonya...you're WEIRD!!!"
• "2 naps in one day...  And it's only Monday of Dead Week...  I'm so screwed."
• "Rachelle scaring the crap out of me with her sneeze!!  (3-16-13)"
• "Karoline fighting a caffeine with caffeine by pressing her Mt. Dew to her temple when she had a caffeine headache.  :D  (3-11-13)"
• "Sonya: *Points to white board*  That's my new white board.  Karoline:  Where's your old one?  Sonya:  On my wall.  Karoline:  Where's your new one?  *Awkward silence as everyone looks incredulously at Karoline*  (4-5-13)"
• "Renee:  At first I was like, "That person REALLY has to go to the bathroom!"  And then I realized it was a shower..."
• "Torturing Rachelle with water noises when she has to go to the bathroom.  (3-17-13)"
• "Planning to blast the song "The Circle of Life" out the window at dawn!"
• "Weird is just a side affect of being AWESOME!!!"  (A random quote that really fits our group of friends!)
• "Watching people miss their mouths while eating at the dining hall makes me chuckle evilly to myself............that is until I do it!"
• "Rachelle:  The creepiest thing in a horror movie is a little girl in a dress.  (3-6-13)"
• "*Cop car comes down the street*  Rachelle and Sonya:  ACT NATURAL!  Wait...  How do we do THAT???"
• "Gently reminding Rachelle of the time over and over again in the morning as she lies in bed.  That is until 8:20 when I say in a no-longer-messing-around voice, "Rachelle...GET UP!"  And she does...groaning and whining."
• "We're all a little weird and life's a little weird.  And when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we fall in mutual weirdness and call it "love".  -Dr. Seuss"  (This is one of my favorite quotes.)
• "Talking to/teasing Karoline about her many medical mishaps, and then having me walk straight into the fire extinguisher box and knocking the wind out of myself two seconds later!"
• *As Rachelle walks too fast...again...*  Me: *Grumbles under my breath...*  I should cut your legs off at the knees!  Rachelle:  *Ponders this seriously for a moment...*  Well if you did...I'd still be taller than you!  *Then she runs away like the cowardly giraffe that she is!*  ;D  (5-1-13)  (For those of you who don't know, Rachelle is six foot six.  So she probably would still be taller than me.)
• "*When my roommates give me a hug before I leave to catch the bus to class...*  Renee:  I feel like I'm a parent sending you off to boarding school.  Me:  HOGWARTS!!!  :D"
• "You can tell my dad's been there when you find an item of food (like a roll or piece of pizza) left on the counter with a single bite taken out of it and you realize it's probably been there for hours.  -.-"
• "Rachelle getting the death glare from the short Asian man at dinner!  LOL!!  (3-17-13)"  (I think Rachelle accidentally bumped his arm or something, and since she was twice as tall as him all he could do was glare.  SO funny!!!)
• "One does not simply rise and shine!  -.-"
• "Rachelle's hiccup that sounds like a baby pterodactyl!"
• "Rachelle:  All's fair in love and Slap Jack!!"  (Slap Jack is a card game that we play which involves slapping the card deck as quickly as you can, whether or not you are squishing your friend's hand in the process!)

          If I we made you laugh...GREAT!!  :)  If not...oh well.  WE DID!!!  :D